I finally went for a visit with my favorite doctor...Dr.Gallant and I discovered that what I've been doing isn't ideal. I really need to eat and take my vitamins and stop worrying that I might gain weight because I'm doing great. It's really hard to want to eat because I'm so scared of failing but with no food then I have no energy. Dr. Gallant weighed me for the first time in years because before he knew I didn't even want to see the numbers and to my surprise I've now lost 40 pounds!!! It feels great but I don't celebrate much because I don't feel like it's enough. I wish that it would be more but I can't possibly eat less, unless I go back to just liquids. Dr. Gallant is right I should be happy but I'm not! He has tried to reassure me that I'm doing an excellent job but I just don't know. I'm so scared now that I can eat solids that I will eat too much or that I will stop losing weight its horrible. I didn't think I would feel this way. Don't get me wrong I don't regret the surgery not at all. I just get really scared...there is nothing after this I CAN'T FAIL!!!
3 comments:
You just gotta keep on trucking! you can do it man!
and don't become anorexic otherwise you will really screw up your body.
-R
No right now the concern is that I throw up after every meal. I do it as a natural response I don't know what else to do I just feel like it needs to be done.
it will be hard, but you can do it! i have faith in your ability to eat well.
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