WOW SO HAPPY!!!

Well today I went to the surgeons' office and met Dr.Huynh. He was really nice and answered all my questions. Then it was time to step on the ugly scale and I've lost 10 pounds!!! I guess not eating has really paid off. I was so scared and just so upset with myself for eating but the doctor told me not to make a big deal of it so I'm not. Can't beat myself up about it since it really is a hard thing to be doing.
5 more days until the surgery and I'm ready and looking forward to it just being over. Starting my new life just sounds and feels great. Things seem to just be going well right now and I really feel good about it.
Well I suppose that is the update for today more soon!

6 Days to Go

Well I can't say that I'm proud of myself I had cheese and crackers. I just couldn't take it anymore I wanted something that tasted normal and omg cheese I have been missing it so much. I went swimming today to try and burn off some of the calories but I don't know if it will help. I want to stay strong and I don't want to cheat anymore this week. I need to try harder no matter how much I want to eat.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with Dr.Huynh and I need to remember to ask him all those things that the book says are important even though at this point I'm going to have the surgery done by him either way. I just want to go there and meet him at least before the surgery date just to be a little more comfortable with the surgery and with his abilities.
Saturday Sandra has asked me to go to Ba Ba Luu with her so I'm looking forward to that. Can't wait to be dancing and feeling good.
Can't wait until after the surgery when at least I'll be able to have some cream of mushroom!!! I'm actually craving it so badly!!!

My 23rd Birthday Celebration at Ba Ba Luu

Me and Patty at the end of the night

Sofia, Me and Sandra..finally a pictures with my best friends

Me and Sofia...why didn't she stop me from dancing like a mad woman?!

My sister's boyfriend David, me and Sandra

The sexiest girls at the club that night Sofia, Sandra, myself and Patty

Me getting tipsy

Sandra and I before dinner...it took us about 20 years to finally get a picture of both of us

Me, Patty and my baby Charlie

This is my sister Patricia and I

This is me and my friend Sofia...looking great before going to Ba Ba Luu to celebrate my 23rd Birthday

GrEaT tImEs

Last night was great! Had a really good time hanging out with Sofia and then today was really funny with the Duran sisters. That blow dryer nearly killed my hair. I laughed so much today on my way home with a great guy (he who shall not be named) and he was really sweet!! Saw a movie "Meet the Spartans" and it was stupid funny. It was such a rental but whatever.
As for life on OptiFast...I only have 8 more days to go! I can't believe I've made it through a whole week of no food and only shakes. I'm really proud of myself and how much I've been really trying to achieve this first hurdle of the race.
I'm so looking forward to this week. It's going to be bitter/sweet since I will be saying goodbye to the old Julia but hello to the new Julia

9 MoRe DaYz

Well all is well I can't believe I've made it this far. I keep telling myself that its all going to turn out great. Yesterday as I was waiting for the bus in Oshawa I wanted so badly to cross the street and buy a sub but nope instead I called my mom so that I could take my mind off things. I will say that today I did cheat a little bit and had a carrot/orange juice but honestly I don't think that should even count as cheating since it's not food.
Today was interesting because Patty asked me what I think will change in my life once I start losing weight and I really think it will just really help with my self-esteem which is what I really think is important. I will for sure see myself in a different way. I'm sure there will be other issues to deal with but I'm just so excited about starting this new journey. Can't wait to start putting up pictures of myself looking thinner and happier of course.
Some of the things I want to do when I'm thinner are Skating, Shopping for great clothes and shows and lots of Swimming and Dancing. I also want to go to Wonderland and go on all the rides again and the water slides. I've always been too embarrassed and felt too awkward to go on them before. I suppose that will all change in time.
I can't wait to be at my goal weight and be able to get my dark fairy tattoo!!

SO IT STARTS

It's 10 days until my gastric bypass surgery and I'm an emotional roller coaster. I'm nervous but excited and super HUNGRY lol! I'm trying to just focus on what the outcome will be and that's helping me through it all. I wanted to start this blog at first to share some pictures with my great friend Rolis but then I figured it would also be a good opportunity to make it into a sort of journal for my weight loss journey. I want to post lots of pictures and share my experience, so that people realize how hard and emotional weight loss can be.

This is super hard for me to say but right now my current weight is 332 pounds and this is the heaviest I've ever been. My goal weight is 140 pounds...so I have a long way to go but I know I can do it especially with all the support from family and friends.

WISH ME LUCK